It has been a while since the last time I blogged. I was getting very good at keeping up on my writing. I looked back and the last blog was July 7th! I am going to try harder to blog more. Not that I have people who read, I think it is good to have a forum to go to to "vent" sometimes.
I have realized a lot of things this summer. I have learned many things over the course of this year alone.
People are undependable. People let other people down. People are disappointing. People make mistakes. People are ignorant. People are misled. People are not perfect.
I am no exception. Lets start here. I have messed up a lot of things in my life. My marriage, my family, and some of my friends. Now, My marriage is fine, lets not jump to conclusions. I have just made a lot of mistakes and hurt my wife along the way. Selfishness has a lot to do with it. My wife, Amanda, has been very understanding and has gone through more than anyone should ever have to. She has been by my side from the beginning of all of my troubles. I love her dearly. I have hurt my family in ways that can't really be said. As for my friends, I am not sure how many friends I have. Who do you call your friend? A friend to me is someone you can go to anytime, tell them anything, and know that they will be understanding and help you in the long run. So... I am not even sure if I have a friend. I know that Amanda is My Best Friend. As far as other people... Not one.
I have realized this summer that friends come and go. It hurts that I had to realize this through my Best friend. We were unseperable. And now, just a few years later, were completely seperated. This is no thanks to me. Let me be perfectly clear. I try to keep our relationship going. Through text and facebook and phonecalls. Still, nothing. He is the one who does not want me to know him anymore. He is undependable, he is disappointing, he is being misled and he is ignorant and most of all, he has let me down. I was supposed to be his best friend. I am not okay with this shut out and never will be, but I do have to realize that it is out of my control and start moving on.
So, moving on I am. Earlier this month, I auditioned for a BIG show in Branson, MO! NOAH the musical. You can explore the show here... http://www.sight-sound.com/WebSiteSS/getlanguages.do I sang, I danced, and I gave my monologue. I feel the audition process went very well. I never say that about anything I do, so that scares me. After the auditions, they sent some people home. Then, they started measuring some people. One of those people was me! They took every body measurement that they would need for costuming. I don't know if this is good news or not. So I had a short interview after that and was sent home. I later ran into one of the people who auditioned that day with me. He is working in TN at a show called The Miracle. I actually saw him in May. He was amazing. We talked for a while and I asked him if he had heard anything about casting and he said that they would not sign anyone on until around November. He did not even get an answer and he was amazing, so I feel pretty good at the moment. So now, I wait until the fall... If nothing happens, I tried. Our plans right now is to keep moving forward. Our goal is to move to Branson by January. That will happen.
I am reminded of a monologue given by Tom Hanks in Castaway. He says, "And I know what I have to do now. I gotta keep breathing. Because tomorrow the sun will rise. Who knows what the tide could bring?"
So no matter what happens, not matter what friends I lose, or what mistakes I make, thats what I will do. I will keep breathing. The sun will rise, the sun will set and the tide can bring anything my way.
